Clueless!!

No, I’m not talking about the movie; I’m actually talking about my life. It’s not really a very comfortable state of affairs. It might have helped if I had Cher Horowitz’s connections, but the only thing we had in common was our clueless state, and now she too has joined the ranks of ‘knowing all’ while I am still walking in the dark.

Why do people always expect you to know more than you do? It’s like a fact of life. Whatever you know well, someone knows better. Me, I don’t even qualify to run the race!

Did you know that Rahul and Tanuja broke up!? I didn’t even know they were dating in the first place! But that’s okay; people don’t expect me to know now. That’s one good thing come out of this miserable affair! Want to pass on some juicy gossip to someone who definitely doesn’t already know? I’m the one they come too.

I can live without knowing if the hottest guy in college is single again. – Would really like to know! – But I can survive in suspense. What I really can’t bear is when everyone knows something about me, which I don’t even know about. Still they always think I know exactly what they’re talking about! News flash people – I’m clueless!!

How do people find all these things out anyway? It’s not like I’m a hermit, I’m always around! But I somehow seem to magically filter out all interesting information. Useless boring trivia – now that I’ll remember! Did you know that 40 guntas is one acre? Who cares!?

To all you people out there who say ‘ignorance is bliss’, I have to tell you – Not!

What’s in the Name?

The first question one would inevitably, indeed it would be considered odd if you didn’t, ask a stranger is “What is your name?” Your name is your identity, your sole possession in this faceless world. It is by your name that you are recognized, honoured and remembered long after your physical presence is lost.

I have always considered it a great misfortune that you cannot choose your given name. A name could tell you so much about a person. Yet we are denied this opportunity for observation simply because a name is etched before the character of a person. Does the name influence the character of a person or is it the name that is influenced by the character of a person? Perhaps on giving it more thought, I shall answer that question myself later.

Over the years I’ve called myself many names, but today I would like to explain why I chose the names I did for this domain.

Sunchaser. Truth to tell, though I’d like to claim I came up with this name on my own, I actually read about it in a series called ‘Unicorns of Balinor’. Sunchaser was the name of a unicorn. I chose this name because, to me, it symbolizes chasing your dreams, the pursuit of happiness. The sun that we all revolve around, that lights up our lives, if we were to ever hold it in our hands the world would be ours. The sun I seek is not yet in my grasp. But till it is, I will chase it.

My URL name, MoonWanderer seems to be the complete opposite of my chosen name. Where the sun gives light and brings day, the moon is the symbol of the night. Where ‘to chase’ shows a definite goal, ‘to wander’ is when one still seeks a goal. Yet, if I were to choose a name for the world I live in, I would still choose MoonWanderer. You might think I meant that in a world shrouded in darkness where people wander aimlessly, unaware of their destination, I am one of those who seek the light. Perhaps. But it is not the reason I chose it.

MoonWanderer… it sounds exotic, fanciful, unbelievable. It makes me think of magic, miracles, fairies, witches, unicorns. The stuff of dreams, of fantasies, an escape from reality. Which is what this is. My escape from reality and the mundane circles that constitute life.

This is the world of my creation. You are welcome to join my here. Maybe you’ll get to know me, maybe you already do, but there will always be something more to learn, something new. So, if you feel you are ready to leave the realm of reality, find your name.